Yesterday was the BESTEST DAY OF MY LIFE. After i went home,called the babe&felt super relieved after talking it all out. Ive never had that kinda feeling when i went "thank god i took it off" Im sorry for keeping you on the phone for hours babe. Today was alright but.......everytime something will pop& spoils it all.

Well i shdnt have mixed my feelings into this friendship.Everytime i add it on,i'll go through the same thing.I ruin é friendship. fuck it. I want us to be like é usual always&nothing to ever spoil it. Let us be the bestest pals ever and put our feelings aside. Things will be alot better that way. But oh well girls,we always mess things up.I think its just me la.I always do dumb stuffs. I'll force myself to be as casual as possible when i see him next time.I wanna downgrade this thing that we've got goin on and start from scratch leaving the past behind this time round.Its gonna kill me to see him with another girl.but i shall try to be normal. ( i think i'll cry la! ) oh crap.tomorrow,judgement day.

see ya folks!